Momma of Two Wonderful Boys

at least it wasnt a month

2009-04-16T13:36:00.003-05:00

i have to work tonight, which is great i need the money, but its a great day out id love to go to the park with the boys instead for sure.

My niece is due at the end of Nov. and hopefully she'll be able to carry full term, she was born at 30 weeks gestational herself and a very pettite girl. We all just want a healthly baby.

Softball starts next week so i need to get my butt to running again so i dont embrass myself, lol.
Well gotta get ready for work.

Okay Okay....

2009-04-06T20:59:00.003-05:00

It has been well over a month since i have had time to sit and play on the computer. Both boys are in soccer which is 3xs a week between the both of them, Im back at work aaagggghhhhh, I forgot how much i hated work. Wish we could win the Lottery, but then again you'd actually have to play the lottery lol.

I found out yesterday that my niece is expecting her first baby, not for sure the due date yet. I am totally excited about having a new addition to our already very large family. Hopefully the baby will be here about Christmas that would be the best ever!!!!

I am also getting ready to start co-ed softball again on wednesday nites, which will be awesome. Since i havent been doing very well on excerising lately, got sick and just have been plain ol lazy.
I am still down 25 lbs but kinda just hanging out there. I have to start running again, it will hopefully warm up soon so i can just take the dog and jay with me to the park.

My 9th wedding annv. is coming up on the 21st, its a little crazy to think of myself as "old enough" to have been married for 9 years. I wouldnt change a day for anything in the world, we are truely still IN LOVE with each other after almost 13 years together. He makes me laugh still almost on a daily basis depends on my day (lol). The best father any mother could ask for, he cooks and cleans.... my wonderful husband!!!!!

Well headed to bed, hoping i will be able to get on more soon... until later

So lots been going on...

2009-02-12T15:16:00.003-06:00

last week I had to go home to help my mom out with a minor medical issue. While there I got to spend the days with my mom and the nights with all my girls, I drank, relaxed and had a wonderful 2-3 day "break". Now I'm back home and back to working out everyday. Just finished with a 5 mile run and then I played volleyball with some friends for about an hour. I feel soooo much better!!!!!!!!!!! Now I need a shower and gonna relax til its time for bball practice tonite. Also my husband (is the best ever) has decided that we can get a small "lap" dog. A friends sister's dog just had a puppy, she is really little and furry and I cant wait til we get to bring her home. Just have to find her a name I like Piper, N likes Izzy, J likes Lily, and dad's says we'll decide when we get her. Cant wait:) I'll post pics as soon as we get her.

I NEED OUT.....

2009-01-30T14:32:00.002-06:00

i have been home not leaving once since monday, people im going crazy!!!!!!!!!! I miss excerising, running and walking the outdoors period. I'm hoping that tomorrow will bring lots of sunshine and melt this crap away....

What a Beautiful Day....

2009-01-22T12:18:00.004-06:00

its only noon and its already almost 60 degrees outside, So im headed to the outdoor track and hopefully put in 6 miles today :) Hope everyone has a wonderful day!!!!!!!!!!

wednesday

2009-01-21T14:15:00.002-06:00

I got my 5 miles in today again WOO HOO but im still tired and really dont want to do anything else except shower and chill so I think thats what the plan is for tonite. And watch a little colleage Basketball. Have a great day to all :):)

It's going to get easier right????

2009-01-20T18:40:00.002-06:00

i have been really good these last three weeks with excersising and watching what i eat. It does get easier tho right??? Im soo worn out from my workouts everyday, I guess y they call it a work out but gosh im still sore. I always feel better (on the inside) after my workouts, I just thought it might get a little easier soon. I did 5 miles today, and i have lost a total of 22 lbs so far but i cant wait for it to get easier :) wishful thinking i know

WOOO IM POOPED....

2009-01-14T16:49:00.003-06:00

i have started to excerise everyday (well atl least 5-6 times a week), i started last monday on the 5th. I did really well for my first week, was walking at least 2 miles aday by weeks end i was walking 5 miles aday. This week i started walking 5 miles and today i RAN 2.5 miles and walked another 2.5 miles so i still made it to 5 for the total but i tell ya im sooooooo exhausted, my legs hurt, it took almost 30 minutes for my "red" face to go away. But Im happy that i have stuck with it everyday :)

In other news, still no job. I went and applied a few places today, no luck tho. But im just trying to stay postive about the whole situation, the excerise is really helping in this area. I know we'll be okay its just been so long since i have went w/o a job, feeling a little uncertain. I really wanted to just pack everything up and move home for that safe feeling, but my husband and i have had sereval long conversations about all of this and have decided to just sit on our tax money this year, which means no vacations like i wanted but oh well right?....hopefully we will be able to find us a house here this summer and really settle in. I want to be able to go back to school next semester for pharmacy tech. There is a school in Springfield, which is about 45 minutes from here, i hope i get accepted that way i have a career and not just a job. Well thats all for now i think.

Lots of decisions??

2009-01-09T16:50:00.003-06:00

I recently turned in my notice at work for a "better" job.... come to find out the day before i start the "new" job I get a phone call that they're just going to bring over another girl from another hotel for the winter instead of filling the postition that they advertised!!!!!!!!!!!! So uggghhhh I have already quit my old job and now have no job because i had orenitation papers and a schedule of when i worked so of course i turned in my notice at the current job and today was my last day there.

Which brings me to all these decisions #1 do i "tough" it out thru the winter and enjoy the time off with my husband and kids and get a job in april when everything starts hiring again ( cause i live in Branson where jobs are seasonal)? #2 pack up and move home to where i have a job and thats where our families are from?

Pros to moving> family, job secerty, my boys love it there, i miss my friends that i have been friends with for 20+ years, that will always be "home" to me,i dont get to see my nieces and nephews grow up, nick has friends there, etc....

Cons to moving> its the middle of the school year, "we" as a family seem happier here, we have made lots of new friends, the tough part is only til april ( but this will happen every year!), we wouldnt only be near my family but his too, which seems to be 1/2 our agurements, our marriage is the best that has ever been since we moved here, its alittle more expensive to live there than here, much less drama here, etc....

Not for sure which we'll choose, just going to try to make the best decision for us as a family. The boys opioion compeletly matter in our decision.

sorry for the rabbling just needed to write it down....

MY first blog of 2009

2009-01-05T23:24:00.003-06:00

SO Happy New Year to everyone!!!!!!! I'm totally looking forward to Thursday night, the BCS National Title Game GOOOOO SOONERS! A few things have changed already this year, I got a new job ( I start next monday), i have offically lost 18lbs since Thanksgiving, for those of you that dont know me personally i have struggled with my weight for the last 9 years, in 99 i was at my "skinnyest" point shortly after that summer i got pregos with my oldest son and then life started and i let it get away. Never again will i weight over 200 lbs and yes this is huge for me, i have two sisters that are personal trainers so i get "the talk" about how lifes not getting any shorter but moving faster everyday, so i decided to start 2009 off right with a weightloss goal of 50 lbs before June 1st.

My H.S. reunion is this summer which is always a great motivater, i havent seen lots of these people in also 10 years and i dont want to show up FAT!!!!!!!!!! So hopefully i can reach my goal and be thin again, i dont need to be "skinny" just a healthly weight. So one of my friends and i went walking today we walk alittle of 2 miles in an hour and we're gonna meet up tomorrow too.

Even though i feel horrible (i have that stupid "head cold") i will get up and go walking tomorrow again m-f for one hour and on the weekends me and the boys will get outside if its not too cold for them. We have a great workout place here it only cost a dollar to walk for as long as you want indoors on a track.

We had a wonderful christmas with all the family. Now im looking forward to a "girls night" back home with my girls. I miss home everytime i go but we as a family are soo happy here. The trips home also make me very appericative of my family and friends everyone is always happy that we're there and we usually have a wonderful time, instead how it used to be feeling like a chore just to go out to my parents i dont mean that in a bad way just when we lived there it was only 45 minutes so we would litterally go every weekend i didnt realize how different i could feel about going back to that small town in Okla. out in the middle of no where. lol..... Hope i feel better in the morning so i can get more out of my walk :)

haven't been on for awhile....

2008-12-21T14:40:00.002-06:00

I have been picking up extra shifts at work, to make all the christmas wishes come true. I am sure that it will be a wonderful day. I know that thats not the "reason" for the season, but my 8 yr old has been asking lots of questions about santa.... "how does he go all around the world in one night?" "reindeer cant fly" etc, etc, etc. So when we're not around lil brother, i let him ask ?'s and try to be as vauge as possible with my answers (haha) so after the holidays, we will probably have "the talk" . But i dont want him to "ruin" it for my lil one (he's only 4). So i have tried to fulfill the Santa list this year, but anyways i have lots of packing to do before we leave on tuesday, and i havent even started laundry yet. Im soooo tired today, i hope to get some energy this afternoon so i can get motivated to get everything done. Just wanted to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year, safe travels for everyone.

In the mind of a 4 yr old....

2008-12-13T19:02:00.004-06:00

So im in the kitchen cooking dinner a couple of nights ago and over heard the boys talking in the living while watching t.v.,
J: N your not the toughest kid in the world!

N: Whatever J ( eyes rolling and completly ignoring his brother)

J: Wanna know why???

N: Why J ???

J: Cause I am...
Are your friends mean to you at school??? Do they make you cccrrryyyy??? (LOL)

N: No my friends are nice to me

J: Well let me know if anyone is mean to you at school

N: Whatever J

I was literally cracking up in the kitchen. The four yr who is half the size of his big brother just needed N to know "he's got his back" too funny, he comes up with some of the most hilarious things, What an imagination....

Im ready...

2008-12-05T21:14:00.002-06:00

for tomorrow night, its the Big XII Championship game WOO HOO. I cant wait really, i picked up a shift in the morning so just about the time i get home and cook dinner i will be sitting down to dinner and OU football.

Several of our friends are going to the game, its gonna be really cold. But i totally wish i was going :) Beat Mizzou and then it the national championship game, that would be awesome. Even though every year we make it to a BCS game we have lost the last like 3 or 4 bowl games, it's really frustrating..... but this is our year i think to go and win our bowl game and Sam Bradford for the Heisman. That would be ideal in "my" world.....:):) thats really all for today, im extremly tired and really ready for bed but i just put the kids to bed so i have about an hour of peace and quiet then ill prolly head to bed.

I'm Back...

2008-12-04T22:18:00.002-06:00

i got that horrible stomach virus that is going around, OMG it was horrible. I feel better today but this has been a three day thing, almost everyone else was only sick about 24 hours, but not me i catch and it hangs out for a while, not to mention the boys already had it. So as im truely feeling like im on my death bed, i realize what they had to go through before me and it made me feel a little worse. We have our fingers crossed that the hubby wont catch it. So my week basically has been spent in bed or in the bathroom floor with the windows and doors open in my house, and yes it freakin cold out but i tell ya if it was above 50 degrees around me i was puking up everything. When i get sick or dont feel well i CAN NOT get hot or i will start throwing up it might sound weird but that's just me. So Tuesday was my worst day and the hubby had to work, so i had both boys all evening by myself, i literally couldnt lift my head off the pillow. Luckily my eight year old learned how to use the microwave that night he made hotdogs and chips for him and lil brother. Go ahead i know its horrible but every time i got up i threw up, i tried two times to stand in the kitchen for approx 3 minutes to help get everything out and and talked him through the rest. He liked it cause he got to "make" dinner (what a healthly dinner too). But im feeling much better tonite i was still weak and icky feeling today but i did go to work and made it thru the whole day. So for everyone that has had it IM SORRY and for everyone else just hope it skips you this time.....

IM SOOO HAPPY

2008-11-29T23:36:00.002-06:00

... that my Sooners won again. YAY!!!!! I have already had a woo hoo to my sis (she's a huge cowboy fan). They actually got to go see the game live, she said it was great. But we'll have to wait to see if its us or Texas to play Mizzou next week. This week should be interesting at work, I work with several Mizzou fans, guess that goes with living in Missouri lol but theres always a great Monday morning conversation about football. Which kinda makes me sad a little its almost over..... BOOMER SOONER i couldnt be more PROUD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bedlam

2008-11-29T13:13:00.003-06:00

Today (or tonight) is BEDLAM IM sooooo Excited !!!!!!!!!!!! I hope we beat them like we beat Tech... hehehehehee......GOOOOO SOONERS, Im ready for it to be game time but we still have like 6 hours so im uploading pics from Thanksgiving to help time pass.... HOpe everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving, We had a wonderful but very short trip home, but we got to have "family poker nite" at my parents on Wednesday Night, which is one of my favorite things about "going home" We always have lots of food, lots of beer or maragarita's, and laugh for hours and someone always goes home with a little extra cash in the case it was in between me and dad at the end and he won... but thats okay :) I still had a wonderful visit with the family , we went to the hubby's side on thursday morning it was nice too, had lots of little boys and just two girls running around and being crazy but we wouldnt have it anyother way... and on the way out of town we stopped by my father in-laws (which we havent seen in almost a year) and had a great couple of hours with them and already looking forward to Christmas :) But now its time to sit and relax and watch some Football.... GO SOONERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Thanksgiving

2008-11-25T17:32:00.002-06:00

Just wanted to wish everyone a safe and happy Thanksgiving this week... Remember not to take things for granted, life is too short.... give thanks to all you think deserve it..... SO here's a Thanks to everyone that reads my (most of the time) boring blog :) i have to admit since i became a "blogger" i feel a little less stress at the end of each blog. We leave at 6 am in the morning to head to Okla for two days, im really bummed its such a short visit. I really miss my sisters and my mom this time of the year more than any other i think, cause we used to shop together all the time from Oct to Dec almost every weekend.... Now 4 hours away visits seem to be getting fewer and futher apart. But we are going to make the most of it ! Headed straight to my Sisters house should be there by 1030ish or so and my other sister plane arrives at 10 o'clock so we are going to have all day WOO HOO. Happy Thanksgiving to everyone. Safe Travling to all....

Tech Who???????

2008-11-22T23:02:00.002-06:00

I LOVE FOOTBALL..... Boomer Sooner Boomer Sooner...all in Sooner Nation sing it with me. That was a wonderful game to watch, couldnt be happier. I am now very much looking forward to the Bedlam game next weekend. BOOMER SOONER, total domination i just cant believe we held them to such a low score. YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good Morning

2008-11-22T08:19:00.002-06:00

GOOD MORNING!!!!!!!!!! its like 8:20 and i have already been up for over an hour....(that never happens on saturdays) well or any other day for that matter LOL... This morning we have family pics, and tonite we are going to be watchin OU vs. Tech.... GOOOOOOO SOONERS!!!!!!!!!!! everyone cross your fingers that we beat Tech, so that we can go to a better BCS bowl game:):) Hope everyone has a wonderful day, and i hope my boys smile well for the camera. Wish us luck lol!!!!!!

What a weekend....

2008-11-16T16:05:00.002-06:00

I had a great time friday night, had waayyyyy too much to drink.... woke up yesterday still a little drunk i think lol but had a good time with everyone... didnt do anything on saturday literally nothing :) ( which was really kinda nice) and today just doin the sunday "stuff" laundry, cleaning, about to cook some dinner, etc... just to get ready for this next week :) We have family pics next weekend. Im really looking forward to that. We have had our family pic done since J was really little, I have had the boys pics done over the last four years just no family pics. So i think its about time, plus they will make great christmas gifts in nice frames for all the gparents and aunts and uncles. Well back to folding laundry, bathes , and dinner.

I feel soooo much better

2008-11-13T20:39:00.002-06:00

So i had kinda bad day, not horrible but just frustrating and it didnt end quickly enough for me lol... So i got the idea to go to our local recplex to walk the indoor track for about an hour, I feel absoultly better, it relieved tension, stress and i got an hour of cardio in too :) Some friends from work were there playing in thier thursday nite volleyball games and one team was short a player so i played a game of volleyball too and had a great time, I think im gonna hit the shower and go to bed. Hopefully i will sleep like a baby tonite. I sure am pooped after 2 hours of excersie (since i never do) lol but i think since in only cost $1 to walk as long as you want im going to try to make it an early morning activity before work so that i wont be missing out on "family time" at nite :) Also i just wanted to give thanks to Mirgraine Mom for the inspriation Thanks again.

Also we have plans to go out with a couple friends of ours tomorrow nite for her bday, they are coming in from Okla. I looking forward to a night out with friends and my husband too :) As i explained in an earlier post we have not ahad an "adult" evening without the kids since we moved to Missouri in may '07 So i think we totally deserve it :) We are going to have sooo much fun, I have known this girl since we were about 4 yrs old starting to play softball together. Just am happy they chose to come up here for their mini vac.

Hiccups

2008-11-11T18:56:00.001-06:00

I have had hiccups for appx. 5 hours now non stop... its sooooo aggravating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i got them at work at about 2 o'clock and its now 7 o'clock and i STILL have them, i have tried all the "ways to get rid of them" and nothing is working......

Wonderful Day

2008-11-10T18:54:00.003-06:00

I had an awesome day... all w/o meds too :) lol i got up alittle later than usual so i hurried thru the shower and put my hair up in a "pretty mess" thats what i call all my hair pulled back with a rubber band wrapped around my thick mess of wet hair this morning, threw on a little make-up and as im headed out the door, my best friend from back home calls and says she and the family are coming in for lunch in about 20 minutes i tell her give me 5 and ill be there and meet up... We didnt get to spend anytime together this weekend while they were here on vac cause her whole family got pukey sick and i really just didnt want to catch it and spread it around my house too... but she understood so before they headed back to Okla they all came in for lunch at the restaurant that i work at. We had a great visit, I got to see her ( i mean my) girls :) ( she has two girls and i have two boys they are all about the same age so we have decided that her girls are just as much mine as my boys are just as much as "her boys". My sweet lil girls run and jumped in my arms as soon as the seen me. What a great feeling to know that someone elses kids miss and love you to this extent :) Her parents came up for vac too and i absoulutly LOVE her parents. SO after they ate and headed out i finished work and made 85 dollars in just 3 hours WOO HOO, then 3 o'clock came it was time for me to head home and since i have been home i have done just about nothing, i did get the kids fed and homework done and now just gonna relax for the rest of the evening, the dishes and last few loads of laundry shall wait til tomorrow. Glad i finally had a good monday :) Also i cant wait for this weekend to get here another set of our friends from Okla are coming in to celebrate a birthday and the hubby and i both get to go. Since we moved in May of '07 we have not let anyone babysit for us, really we just didnt know anyone enough to trust, but i have made some wonderful friends here and one of them has offered to come sit with the boys friday from about 8 to 2ish, I promised her we wouldnt stay out too late and since we're not even heading out til 8 or 830ish i will have the boys fed and in their pj's so hopefully it will be an easy evening for her..... IM just sooo happy that me and hubby get an "adult" nite out together. I thought about it earlier and me and the hubby have not been out together w/o the kids since thanksgiving last year when we were in okla and my mom kept the boys so we could go to a surprise 30th bday party for my best friends husband. So a year later i think we deserve a nite out with other adults lol Just glad things are starting to get back to normal for us..... thank goodness

WOW I got alot done today

2008-11-09T19:09:00.002-06:00

I feel sooo much better that it is 7 o'clock dinner is on the stove cooking, the house is clean and all but 3 loads of laundry are done. ( it was more like 10 this morning) Im happy that tomorrow when i get off all i'll have to do is homework with nick, and maybe the dishes and cook dinner. WOO HOO i got alot done today and am about to go watch Amazing Race and relax for the rest of the evening, maybe with a little bud light lime in hand. ( i think i deserve it lol) YAY!!!!!

YAY!!!!

2008-11-08T22:06:00.002-06:00

YAY!!!!! We won and won by alot WOO HOO... now we need to beat Texas Tech, keep your fingers crossed lol:) really tired tonite tho so i think im headed to bed early... What a great day!!!!!!!!!!

I love Saturdays

2008-11-08T13:41:00.002-06:00

So the football game starts in about in hour and im offically on a count down... is it sad at all that i totally look forward to saturdays especially for SOONER football... nah its a great thing, I think. Well i hope we win big at Texas A&M today then we have Texas Tech at Norman and then O State in Stillwater, Cant wait i pray we will win out right and have the chance to go to the Big 12 Championship game....and of course the BCS Championship too :) Hope everyone has a wonderful saturday!!!!!!!!!!!

TGIF

2008-11-07T18:59:00.002-06:00

I made it to Friday, YAY.... it feels like such an acomplishment. It was a long and tiring week, but its friday, I get to sleep in in the morning, then my Sooners play at 230 in the afternoon, then going to hang out with one of my best friends thats in town with her family, im sooo excited for tomorrow it should be a great day :) its supposed to be cold so hopefully we'll find something indoors to do with all the kids that will be fun. Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend.

Feeling Better WOO HOO

2008-11-06T17:10:00.002-06:00

So i am starting to feel alot better today and even had a pretty good day at work. I am also extremely happy that tomorrow is Friday, i cant remember ever loving fridays like i do now, even as a teenager. I truely appreciate when its Friday :) lol.... So i hope everyone else has a wonderful friday and weekend i know i will :) Watchin some football on saturday and hangin with my boys on sunday, nothing could be better. HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!!! oh and i heard on the radio earlier that today is nation "he" cooks dinner day... So guess what my husband cooked, subway for me and mickey d's for him and the kids lol oh well at least i didnt have to cook.

uggh...

2008-11-04T16:37:00.002-06:00

So i feel like crap today... i am taking 10 pills a day for the next 10 days uggh.... it usually doesnt bother me to bad to take medicine, especially in pill form but omg 10 its just waayyyy tooooo much i swear between anti-depressiants, birth control and 6 anti-boditics ... BLAH BLAH BLAH i dont want to have to swallow another one!!!!!!!!!! and to top it off my "allergies" are acting up, i have NEVER had allergies before i moved to Missouri... WTF!!!! and the weather is sooo nice out but keeps changing so everything is making me sneeze and my eyes are watery and itchy . BLAH BLAH BLAH is how i feel i just wanna take some nyquil and go to bed, but the hubby is at work so i have the boys by myself today. Its gonna be an early bedtime for sure. HOpe I feel better tomorrow only 4 more to take today.

He's Home

2008-11-02T00:07:00.001-05:00

My parents brought J home today YAY!!!!!!!!! Ou kicked butt AGAIN :) YAY!!!!!!!!!! and Tech beat Texas YAY!!!!!!!!!!! SO all in all i had a wonderful day YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So he finally got on the phone

2008-10-29T17:33:00.003-05:00

So finally after he got to my sisters last night she convinced him he really needed to atleast say hi to momma, so he gets on the phone i ask how everything is going and he says "im bein such a good boy... I'm stayin at my steppy's for forever , k love you good nite mom bye" literally before i could get any thing else in he got off the phone and ran off to play with his cousins. So again i call this morning before i leave for work to see if he'll talk and my grandmother was keeping him for the day, my parents had a funeral, but he still refused to talk tells mimi he was too busy :) all in all not really upset about most of it cause i can hear his little giggles in the background so i know he's having such a wonderful time with the family... Sometimes i really miss "home" too, so atleast he's enjoying it and ill see him on sunday too thats not too far away and within about two weeks ill be beggin her to come get him again lol (not really).... so lets see if he will talk tonite :)

He still wont talk to me lol

2008-10-28T16:11:00.002-05:00

So I just called again to try and talk with J, he still is perstiant on NO... and still says but ill talk to my steppy ( my sister) which my mom just went and got my niece and nephew to come play for the evening then when my sis gets off she's goin to go pick J up so i figure maybe just MAYBE he'll talk to me after he gets his "Steppy" fix...lol... prolly not though and thats ok too, just makes me realize even more what a big boy he is, goes a whole state away and doesnt even need to talk to mom or dad for 3 days now, he'll be back on sunday so i guess i only have a few more of these kind of days (enjoy them i guess lol) well maybe tonite at bedtime ill get him on the phone for an I love you!!!!

the call to say goodnite

2008-10-27T21:01:00.002-05:00

wasnt any better in fact this time he asked to call his cousins instead.. he's such a stinker, i know that he misses me but he knows that he's being funny so he just grins mom says and tells her no dont want to talk... i even pulled the hey wanna talk to dad instead still nope... lol he's havin fun and so far she says hasnt even gotten on to him once :) proud he's being a good boy!!!!!

Just how I thought it would be

2008-10-27T16:27:00.001-05:00

Just how I thought it would be.. So i called this morning to talk to J, he says no he was to busy playin with a puzzle but while im on the phone asks to call his aunt... who is probably one of his favorite people in the whole world and always has been. Shes a few years old than me but our boys are 11 months apart then she has a daughter just right behind the boys, so when J was born he was the only "baby" and has been since so for 4 yrs they have been best buds, she goes to the store and all the others stay behind but not her J he always goes.. but back on how of course he doesnt need to talk to mom i just seen her yesterday... i give him til tomorrow before he probably askin to talk to me or the first time he gets into trouble with nana lol which might not take very long :) I hope he's havin a blast, i miss him but N really seems to be enjoying his "peace and quiet" lol.. Im sure on halloween is when N will be wishes J was here too.. Off to try to call and get him on the phone

Only One Kid for about a week....

2008-10-26T16:05:00.004-05:00

So my mom came up for a visit this weekend, for a womens chruch retreat. We met up with her last nite for dinner and the whole time she was "begging" me to let her take the boys home with her both of them but N has school all week and he obiviously cant miss a week of school just cause. So after over 24 hours of her asking, pleading, and bribing J i decided that he could go for the week but i want him back... then after i got him all excited about goin with Nana, I realized that halloween is friday, so again i said NO just not this time... but then J started in on how i promised as along as he was a good boy that he could go... so i also consider N feelings and he says "i'm ready for some peace and quiet just let him go" lol.... I guess he'll spend halloween with my sister and his cousins which he will absolutley love and they will too.. just dont know if i can go a whole week without my lil man... im havin sooo many emotional "issues" as is i of course cried when they went to leave and he wouldnt even kiss me "cause i just did at the house" Im sure he'll have a blast, and im sure N will enjoy his "peace and quiet" i told my sister to take TONS of pics since i wont be there... gosh what was i thinkin.... my mom has a way of "working me" but i guess i used to have the same effect on her lol wish me luck this week with only one kiddo, i know everyones probably thinkin- only if i could get rid of one kid- but lately my kids are the only thing that makes me happy in the slightest, is that crazy too???? i cant wait to feel "normal" again ... I will wont I ?????? its only been 3 hours by the way gosh im just a nut case

BOOMER SOONER

2008-10-25T13:40:00.001-05:00

I FREAKIN LOVE FOOTBALL MY Oklahoma Sooners scored 55 pts in the first have.... BOOMER SOONER BOOMER SOONER BOOMER SOONER sing it with me all you in Sooner Nation GO OU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ONE Proud MOMMA

2008-10-24T20:42:00.002-05:00

So parent/teacher conferences were a hit this morning he has a couple of c's but she says that reflects his effort and not his intellengence( he's not very motivative) She says lots of daydreaming but when she reminds him of what he's supposed to be doing that everything goes well, polite to others, shares, and no attitude problems (well at least yet lol) So needless to say i was stoked. Another reason i wanted to treat him to a night out with dinner and dessert for getting such a good report from the teacher... Well just wanted to say today IM ONE PROUD BIG MOMMA :)

Never would have thought it!!!!

2008-10-24T20:31:00.002-05:00

So my hubby left this evening to go to okla for a visit with his gma, she's hasnt been in the best of health but is home for the weekend at least.... But the point is that on the way to drop him off at the car he was takin, i was talkin to the boys about havin a "date" nite with momma and how we should go home and change clothes and head out for some dinner. Well the oldest starts in on how he doesnt "feel" like it so of course the lil man starts in too. Which by the way is what always happens with the hubby. SO i make the comment that i want a little girl soon like this year or next... and instead of automatic dismissal of another baby (which is what i thought id get) i got oh you know it will be a little girl and a daddy's girl too so you'll still be out numbered lol and the saddest thing is i know it would be soooo true if we were to be blessed with alittle girl she would probably be a daddy's girl. I was (lol still am). But with all the bad news i have gotten in the last few days im starting to think that tryin for another baby it might just be time...and before you say "i told you so" jamie lol just not for sure if im ready for jay to be the last baby????? lets wait til tomorrow comes and see how i feel about another then lol :)

Good Day #2

2008-10-23T22:10:00.003-05:00

I'm happy to say that today was a decent day... work got alittle (well alot) crazy. But it only lasted a couple of hours and i only had one panic attack :) Came home and spent the evening with my wonderful boys..ALL THREE :) Hubby going out of town to visit his gma for the weekend, but my mom is coming up for a chruch retreat so at least ill be able to spend a little time with her, my boys need some nana time too Well i hope everyone has a great nite.. Im makin it an early bedtime , have parent teacher conferences in the morning wish us luck :) im sure he'll get great reviews, im ready for a little more of reading issues but he just gets lazy with that part, gotta keep on him lol GOOD NIGHT!!!! ps tomorrow friday and I LOVE FRIDAYS!!!!!!

Such a better day

2008-10-22T23:00:00.002-05:00

I had such a better day today...YAY!!! not much else just finally felt better:):) Still waiting to hear back from the doc but im optimistic and hope its all in "my head" and will work itself out naturally. Good Night and Have a Great Thursday!!!!!

just blah...

2008-10-21T20:48:00.003-05:00

Dont really know how to start this one.... I went to the "female" doc yesterday and wasnt the best visit.... i havent ever really considered myself to have anxiety or panic attacks but a few months back (around mothers day) i noticed uncontrolable emotional "episodes" and recenty more frequently. The thing is since we have moved in the last 18 months i have been happier than ever before with my husband, how our marriage is, my wonderful boys.. but i just cant seem to get a grip on my emotions so in the process of gettin an annual done (which was wayyyy over due) i havent been since march of 07 because i got bad news then and didnt have insurance when we moved i have just put it off. I wake up monday morning in horrible pain and decided i couldnt stand it any longer so after an all day search for a doc that would see me that day i finally get to the doc and start in with family history...etc...etc... then she asked about emotional issues since i hadnt had my cycle in 18 months ( which by the way it never crossed my mind that it could be the reason for my emotionalist) need less to say as im cryin in the doc office she decides that i need some help tryin to balance my emotions, and chemicals so i have started some new meds and feel like im walking around in a haze... the doc said meds shouldnt "kick" in for a few days... just still feelin a little unlike myself hoping meds will help... guess we'll see.

In addition to all my news: We got news that my husbands gma is in the hospital agian so if you pray please pray that she'll continute to get strong enough to go home this weekend..

The day after the Cocert

2008-10-19T16:44:00.002-05:00

So im not feeling as bad as i thought i would...:):) i have found a new love for vodka and grape/cranberry juice YUMYUM!!! But about the concert it was an outdoor show, the bands were Chasin Dixie, Keith Anderson, Darius Ruker (sp) not for sure if thats how you spell his name and then of course Brooks and Dunn. We some how made our way thru the crowd to the very front i mean touching the walk out part of the stage.. WOOO HOO!!!!! they were awesome then we decided to go "clubbin" but once we made the long walk back to the car we felt it would be to just head to the hotel. We didnt get up til 1030 which is when the front desk called about check out ( remind you "we" are mothers who get up early everyday extremly early) so when we realized who long we had slept in it was a WOW effect, rushed around quickly to gather our things to head home ( my husband had to be at work) So now im home with my boys just hangin out but soooo very sleeply thinkin since it is a school nite we'll make it an early one :) But all in all i had a wonderful trip and cant wait for the next :)

IM So EXCITED....

2008-10-17T20:52:00.003-05:00

So its 1 o'clock and that means we are officially on a count down to leaving in about 30 minutes to go to watch Brooks and Dunn concert and stopping in Joplin to watch the OU vs Kansas game. ( Cass is the best) My friend isnt really even into football but i ABSOULITLY Love it so she's leaving early so i can at least watch the second half, keep your fringers crossed that we beat em bad and i mean bad (after last week) im not really a bad sport at all i mean we lost and they beat us farely but losin aint no fun :):) More than bein excited about the concert and game i'm just really in need of some r & r, which totally makes me feel bad.. but every mom/girl needs a little every once in awhile so im sure ill be hungover in the morning but lovin every minute. Everyone have a wonderful saturday!!!!!!

cant wait for tomorrow

2008-10-17T20:52:00.002-05:00

Well I cant wait for tomorrow, First my OKlahoma Sooners are playin Kansas and I hope we kick that jayhawk butt!!!! i work with a lady who is a die hard KU fan and we have had lots of fun today sh*t talkin :):) and then after the game, a friend and i are driving to Miami Okla to the Buffalo Run Casino to see Brooks and Dunn Concert... I'm SOOOO excited for some girl time, its been a couple of months since i have had any "adult" time Woo Hoo... Cant wait Girl Time and a little R &R mini vac for mom.... cant wait even thinkin about goin to bed early since i have sooo many things to do before we leave... YAY!!!!!! GIRL TIME

Happily Married

2008-10-15T00:32:00.000-05:00

So after the horrible day/evening (because it continued) all i needed was a couple of hours of just hangin out with my husband...I dont want to seemed shocked at this thought but to be honest all day i just felt like the only thing that would help is going to bed to end the day. But he came home from work about 930ish and by ten i was actually smiling and feeling my anxienty melt away. Thank goodness for him today :) now at 12 30 im headed to bed feeling better about what tomorrow will bring....

Horrible day

2008-10-14T18:56:00.000-05:00

Not much to say but its been a bad day, it started with work and has continued from there, J is really tryin my patience today and the poor lil guy doesnt even realize it...its totally not his fault but gosh mom's havin a day, can i get a break .... well not til at least 8 which is bedtime thank goodness for bedtime :) been tryin real hard to get in a better mood i have even been jammin to music which usually helps just not today... guess there's always tomorrow right???? pray that tomorrow is better .....

Monday Monday

2008-10-13T15:59:00.000-05:00

So today is Monday, since i have started working M-F i now hate mondays:) not really i just had a long weekend full of lots of busy things and wasnt really ready to get up this morning and go to work... but it turned out pretty well i made 78 dollars this morning and i got off at 3 so not bad for 4 hours of work :) and now its time for reading, spelling and dinner soon... MONDAY, MONDAY....this song has been in my head all day lol....i think it just might be a wine drinking evening as well, OH and on a brighter note my husband and i started dating 12 years ago today and thats just CRAZY i dont feel old enough to have been in a relationship for 12 years but i can truely say i love him more with every day. Just like everyone else we've had our issues but i think i have finally learned to appericate him instead of expecting him to know what i want and need... it only took 12 yrs lol i hope we make it 60 more :)

and its sunday again....

2008-10-12T15:35:00.000-05:00

So I just had lunch with my sister and brother in-law, it was a good lunch and now they are on the way back to Okla. I have had my niece and nephew all weekend, We had a wonderful time. Sometimes I forget how much i miss my family.... these little mini weekend visits are nice . But its Sunday again which means i need to start laundry, do the dishes and make sure Nickolas has everything ready for the week for school, and since i had lunch with the fam I have to get out at 10 oclock tonite to get the hubby from work, i was hoping to be in bed by 10 tonite.... so im off to start the sunday chores.... OH what FUN!!!!(yeah right)

My First Blog

2008-10-12T00:23:00.000-05:00

Hello to all, This is my first blog ever...So i guess ill start with today events First I am a huge Oklahoma Sooner Fan, and we lost our first game of the season today against Texas, Im not as upset as i thought id be They played a great game just didnt end in our favor.. Then We have my niece and nephew visiting from Okla for the weekend so we took them to Ripley's Believe It or Not, pretty good but only took up about an hour and half (totally thought i would take longer) then we (me, jayson, and madison) went to walmart to get jays hair cut, He needed one terribley bad (much better now) and to get miss madison's bday present since i hadnt mailed it yet, by the way her bday was the first of September what a great aunt i am...lol.... and now just playin on the computer tryin to wind down from the day I hope to really get into this blogging thing and meet lots of new moms and hear their wonderful stories of motherhood,by the way i am the PROUD mother of two wonderful boys Nick is 8 and Jayson is 4 I have been married to a wonderful man for 8 yrs now well hope to chat with everyone soon