So he finally got on the phone

So finally after he got to my sisters last night she convinced him he really needed to atleast say hi to momma, so he gets on the phone i ask how everything is going and he says "im bein such a good boy... I'm stayin at my steppy's for forever , k love you good nite mom bye" literally before i could get any thing else in he got off the phone and ran off to play with his cousins. So again i call this morning before i leave for work to see if he'll talk and my grandmother was keeping him for the day, my parents had a funeral, but he still refused to talk tells mimi he was too busy :) all in all not really upset about most of it cause i can hear his little giggles in the background so i know he's having such a wonderful time with the family... Sometimes i really miss "home" too, so atleast he's enjoying it and ill see him on sunday too thats not too far away and within about two weeks ill be beggin her to come get him again lol (not really).... so lets see if he will talk tonite :)

He still wont talk to me lol

So I just called again to try and talk with J, he still is perstiant on NO... and still says but ill talk to my steppy ( my sister) which my mom just went and got my niece and nephew to come play for the evening then when my sis gets off she's goin to go pick J up so i figure maybe just MAYBE he'll talk to me after he gets his "Steppy" fix...lol... prolly not though and thats ok too, just makes me realize even more what a big boy he is, goes a whole state away and doesnt even need to talk to mom or dad for 3 days now, he'll be back on sunday so i guess i only have a few more of these kind of days (enjoy them i guess lol) well maybe tonite at bedtime ill get him on the phone for an I love you!!!!

the call to say goodnite

wasnt any better in fact this time he asked to call his cousins instead.. he's such a stinker, i know that he misses me but he knows that he's being funny so he just grins mom says and tells her no dont want to talk... i even pulled the hey wanna talk to dad instead still nope... lol he's havin fun and so far she says hasnt even gotten on to him once :) proud he's being a good boy!!!!!

Just how I thought it would be

Just how I thought it would be.. So i called this morning to talk to J, he says no he was to busy playin with a puzzle but while im on the phone asks to call his aunt... who is probably one of his favorite people in the whole world and always has been. Shes a few years old than me but our boys are 11 months apart then she has a daughter just right behind the boys, so when J was born he was the only "baby" and has been since so for 4 yrs they have been best buds, she goes to the store and all the others stay behind but not her J he always goes.. but back on how of course he doesnt need to talk to mom i just seen her yesterday... i give him til tomorrow before he probably askin to talk to me or the first time he gets into trouble with nana lol which might not take very long :) I hope he's havin a blast, i miss him but N really seems to be enjoying his "peace and quiet" lol.. Im sure on halloween is when N will be wishes J was here too.. Off to try to call and get him on the phone

Only One Kid for about a week....

So my mom came up for a visit this weekend, for a womens chruch retreat. We met up with her last nite for dinner and the whole time she was "begging" me to let her take the boys home with her both of them but N has school all week and he obiviously cant miss a week of school just cause. So after over 24 hours of her asking, pleading, and bribing J i decided that he could go for the week but i want him back... then after i got him all excited about goin with Nana, I realized that halloween is friday, so again i said NO just not this time... but then J started in on how i promised as along as he was a good boy that he could go... so i also consider N feelings and he says "i'm ready for some peace and quiet just let him go" lol.... I guess he'll spend halloween with my sister and his cousins which he will absolutley love and they will too.. just dont know if i can go a whole week without my lil man... im havin sooo many emotional "issues" as is i of course cried when they went to leave and he wouldnt even kiss me "cause i just did at the house" Im sure he'll have a blast, and im sure N will enjoy his "peace and quiet" i told my sister to take TONS of pics since i wont be there... gosh what was i thinkin.... my mom has a way of "working me" but i guess i used to have the same effect on her lol wish me luck this week with only one kiddo, i know everyones probably thinkin- only if i could get rid of one kid- but lately my kids are the only thing that makes me happy in the slightest, is that crazy too???? i cant wait to feel "normal" again ... I will wont I ?????? its only been 3 hours by the way gosh im just a nut case

BOOMER SOONER

I FREAKIN LOVE FOOTBALL MY Oklahoma Sooners scored 55 pts in the first have.... BOOMER SOONER BOOMER SOONER BOOMER SOONER sing it with me all you in Sooner Nation GO OU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ONE Proud MOMMA

So parent/teacher conferences were a hit this morning he has a couple of c's but she says that reflects his effort and not his intellengence( he's not very motivative) She says lots of daydreaming but when she reminds him of what he's supposed to be doing that everything goes well, polite to others, shares, and no attitude problems (well at least yet lol) So needless to say i was stoked. Another reason i wanted to treat him to a night out with dinner and dessert for getting such a good report from the teacher... Well just wanted to say today IM ONE PROUD BIG MOMMA :)

Never would have thought it!!!!

So my hubby left this evening to go to okla for a visit with his gma, she's hasnt been in the best of health but is home for the weekend at least.... But the point is that on the way to drop him off at the car he was takin, i was talkin to the boys about havin a "date" nite with momma and how we should go home and change clothes and head out for some dinner. Well the oldest starts in on how he doesnt "feel" like it so of course the lil man starts in too. Which by the way is what always happens with the hubby. SO i make the comment that i want a little girl soon like this year or next... and instead of automatic dismissal of another baby (which is what i thought id get) i got oh you know it will be a little girl and a daddy's girl too so you'll still be out numbered lol and the saddest thing is i know it would be soooo true if we were to be blessed with alittle girl she would probably be a daddy's girl. I was (lol still am). But with all the bad news i have gotten in the last few days im starting to think that tryin for another baby it might just be time...and before you say "i told you so" jamie lol just not for sure if im ready for jay to be the last baby????? lets wait til tomorrow comes and see how i feel about another then lol :)

Good Day #2

I'm happy to say that today was a decent day... work got alittle (well alot) crazy. But it only lasted a couple of hours and i only had one panic attack :) Came home and spent the evening with my wonderful boys..ALL THREE :) Hubby going out of town to visit his gma for the weekend, but my mom is coming up for a chruch retreat so at least ill be able to spend a little time with her, my boys need some nana time too Well i hope everyone has a great nite.. Im makin it an early bedtime , have parent teacher conferences in the morning wish us luck :) im sure he'll get great reviews, im ready for a little more of reading issues but he just gets lazy with that part, gotta keep on him lol GOOD NIGHT!!!! ps tomorrow friday and I LOVE FRIDAYS!!!!!!

Such a better day

I had such a better day today...YAY!!! not much else just finally felt better:):) Still waiting to hear back from the doc but im optimistic and hope its all in "my head" and will work itself out naturally. Good Night and Have a Great Thursday!!!!!

just blah...

Dont really know how to start this one.... I went to the "female" doc yesterday and wasnt the best visit.... i havent ever really considered myself to have anxiety or panic attacks but a few months back (around mothers day) i noticed uncontrolable emotional "episodes" and recenty more frequently. The thing is since we have moved in the last 18 months i have been happier than ever before with my husband, how our marriage is, my wonderful boys.. but i just cant seem to get a grip on my emotions so in the process of gettin an annual done (which was wayyyy over due) i havent been since march of 07 because i got bad news then and didnt have insurance when we moved i have just put it off. I wake up monday morning in horrible pain and decided i couldnt stand it any longer so after an all day search for a doc that would see me that day i finally get to the doc and start in with family history...etc...etc... then she asked about emotional issues since i hadnt had my cycle in 18 months ( which by the way it never crossed my mind that it could be the reason for my emotionalist) need less to say as im cryin in the doc office she decides that i need some help tryin to balance my emotions, and chemicals so i have started some new meds and feel like im walking around in a haze... the doc said meds shouldnt "kick" in for a few days... just still feelin a little unlike myself hoping meds will help... guess we'll see.


In addition to all my news: We got news that my husbands gma is in the hospital agian so if you pray please pray that she'll continute to get strong enough to go home this weekend..

The day after the Cocert

So im not feeling as bad as i thought i would...:):) i have found a new love for vodka and grape/cranberry juice YUMYUM!!! But about the concert it was an outdoor show, the bands were Chasin Dixie, Keith Anderson, Darius Ruker (sp) not for sure if thats how you spell his name and then of course Brooks and Dunn. We some how made our way thru the crowd to the very front i mean touching the walk out part of the stage.. WOOO HOO!!!!! they were awesome then we decided to go "clubbin" but once we made the long walk back to the car we felt it would be to just head to the hotel. We didnt get up til 1030 which is when the front desk called about check out ( remind you "we" are mothers who get up early everyday extremly early) so when we realized who long we had slept in it was a WOW effect, rushed around quickly to gather our things to head home ( my husband had to be at work) So now im home with my boys just hangin out but soooo very sleeply thinkin since it is a school nite we'll make it an early one :) But all in all i had a wonderful trip and cant wait for the next :)

IM So EXCITED....

So its 1 o'clock and that means we are officially on a count down to leaving in about 30 minutes to go to watch Brooks and Dunn concert and stopping in Joplin to watch the OU vs Kansas game. ( Cass is the best) My friend isnt really even into football but i ABSOULITLY Love it so she's leaving early so i can at least watch the second half, keep your fringers crossed that we beat em bad and i mean bad (after last week) im not really a bad sport at all i mean we lost and they beat us farely but losin aint no fun :):) More than bein excited about the concert and game i'm just really in need of some r & r, which totally makes me feel bad.. but every mom/girl needs a little every once in awhile so im sure ill be hungover in the morning but lovin every minute. Everyone have a wonderful saturday!!!!!!

cant wait for tomorrow

Well I cant wait for tomorrow, First my OKlahoma Sooners are playin Kansas and I hope we kick that jayhawk butt!!!! i work with a lady who is a die hard KU fan and we have had lots of fun today sh*t talkin :):) and then after the game, a friend and i are driving to Miami Okla to the Buffalo Run Casino to see Brooks and Dunn Concert... I'm SOOOO excited for some girl time, its been a couple of months since i have had any "adult" time Woo Hoo... Cant wait Girl Time and a little R &R mini vac for mom.... cant wait even thinkin about goin to bed early since i have sooo many things to do before we leave... YAY!!!!!! GIRL TIME

Happily Married

So after the horrible day/evening (because it continued) all i needed was a couple of hours of just hangin out with my husband...I dont want to seemed shocked at this thought but to be honest all day i just felt like the only thing that would help is going to bed to end the day. But he came home from work about 930ish and by ten i was actually smiling and feeling my anxienty melt away. Thank goodness for him today :) now at 12 30 im headed to bed feeling better about what tomorrow will bring....

Horrible day

Not much to say but its been a bad day, it started with work and has continued from there, J is really tryin my patience today and the poor lil guy doesnt even realize it...its totally not his fault but gosh mom's havin a day, can i get a break .... well not til at least 8 which is bedtime thank goodness for bedtime :) been tryin real hard to get in a better mood i have even been jammin to music which usually helps just not today... guess there's always tomorrow right???? pray that tomorrow is better .....

Monday Monday

So today is Monday, since i have started working M-F i now hate mondays:) not really i just had a long weekend full of lots of busy things and wasnt really ready to get up this morning and go to work... but it turned out pretty well i made 78 dollars this morning and i got off at 3 so not bad for 4 hours of work :) and now its time for reading, spelling and dinner soon... MONDAY, MONDAY....this song has been in my head all day lol....i think it just might be a wine drinking evening as well, OH and on a brighter note my husband and i started dating 12 years ago today and thats just CRAZY i dont feel old enough to have been in a relationship for 12 years but i can truely say i love him more with every day. Just like everyone else we've had our issues but i think i have finally learned to appericate him instead of expecting him to know what i want and need... it only took 12 yrs lol i hope we make it 60 more :)

and its sunday again....

So I just had lunch with my sister and brother in-law, it was a good lunch and now they are on the way back to Okla. I have had my niece and nephew all weekend, We had a wonderful time. Sometimes I forget how much i miss my family.... these little mini weekend visits are nice . But its Sunday again which means i need to start laundry, do the dishes and make sure Nickolas has everything ready for the week for school, and since i had lunch with the fam I have to get out at 10 oclock tonite to get the hubby from work, i was hoping to be in bed by 10 tonite.... so im off to start the sunday chores.... OH what FUN!!!!(yeah right)

My First Blog

Hello to all, This is my first blog ever...So i guess ill start with today events First I am a huge Oklahoma Sooner Fan, and we lost our first game of the season today against Texas, Im not as upset as i thought id be They played a great game just didnt end in our favor.. Then We have my niece and nephew visiting from Okla for the weekend so we took them to Ripley's Believe It or Not, pretty good but only took up about an hour and half (totally thought i would take longer) then we (me, jayson, and madison) went to walmart to get jays hair cut, He needed one terribley bad (much better now) and to get miss madison's bday present since i hadnt mailed it yet, by the way her bday was the first of September what a great aunt i am...lol.... and now just playin on the computer tryin to wind down from the day I hope to really get into this blogging thing and meet lots of new moms and hear their wonderful stories of motherhood,by the way i am the PROUD mother of two wonderful boys Nick is 8 and Jayson is 4 I have been married to a wonderful man for 8 yrs now well hope to chat with everyone soon