Only One Kid for about a week....

So my mom came up for a visit this weekend, for a womens chruch retreat. We met up with her last nite for dinner and the whole time she was "begging" me to let her take the boys home with her both of them but N has school all week and he obiviously cant miss a week of school just cause. So after over 24 hours of her asking, pleading, and bribing J i decided that he could go for the week but i want him back... then after i got him all excited about goin with Nana, I realized that halloween is friday, so again i said NO just not this time... but then J started in on how i promised as along as he was a good boy that he could go... so i also consider N feelings and he says "i'm ready for some peace and quiet just let him go" lol.... I guess he'll spend halloween with my sister and his cousins which he will absolutley love and they will too.. just dont know if i can go a whole week without my lil man... im havin sooo many emotional "issues" as is i of course cried when they went to leave and he wouldnt even kiss me "cause i just did at the house" Im sure he'll have a blast, and im sure N will enjoy his "peace and quiet" i told my sister to take TONS of pics since i wont be there... gosh what was i thinkin.... my mom has a way of "working me" but i guess i used to have the same effect on her lol wish me luck this week with only one kiddo, i know everyones probably thinkin- only if i could get rid of one kid- but lately my kids are the only thing that makes me happy in the slightest, is that crazy too???? i cant wait to feel "normal" again ... I will wont I ?????? its only been 3 hours by the way gosh im just a nut case